August - 2006
August 30, 2006 - I found the most wonderful hat! Someday, I would like to get this amazing head piece and wear it about. It's colorful and happy and I love it. And for some reason unbeknownst to me, it reminds me of how I'd like my life to be. Well made, excellent quality, yet wonderfully simple at the same time. Of course, there's no escaping the day-to-day drudgery, but I do think that it's all in your perspective. Someday when I have my own place, I'm going to fill it with as many roses as I can. I love the smell and their loveliness. I figure, if I have never been the recipient of flowers from a gentleman thus far, I'm going to fill this "gap" on my own. And it'll be fabulous =)
And to my lovely audience: If you haven't noticed, there's a new layout featuring my favorite actress, Keira Knightley from a photoshoot for In Style magazine.
I think I'm going to find my dance shoes and dance tomorrow. I've missed it.
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August 28, 2006 - It's 2:20 a.m. and I'm still awake. I really am a night owl. In the later hours of the evening and in the early morning hours I feel the most alive. I also get most of my creative impulses then, and as of late I've been able to get down my ideas for stories onto paper - and that makes me feel like I'm slowly accomplishing something =) Before I die, I'd like to publish a book, even if it's just a small, little something. I'd still like to know that something I wrote was worthy to be in print.
And I have a title! That's never happened to me before. I'm quite excited! As for the story itself, well, that's in the making. There's several directions I want to take it in, so I'll just have to wait and see how it turns out to decide.
It's always struck me as amazing at how a song, or a few lines of writing can make you feel so happy. Simple, little things that light up your life and make it so much fuller. I think that sometimes life needs to be taken in "slow motion" in order to appreciate different parts of it. Being able to listen to the rain, or watching the soft light of the moon can be warming on the inside - like a good cup of tea.
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August 11, 2006 - I felt like changing the layout because I didn't like the other one =/ I love Anne Hathaway, but the design wasn't exactly to my liking. So now I have Carrie Anne Moss from the Matrix.
Today was the most awful day. Some people are just so impatient and terrible even when you're trying your best to please customers. And what was worse was that I broke down right then and there. I didn't mean for it to happen - it just did. And of course, the cold-war between me and my mother is still ever present =/ I just can't make her happy.
I'd really like for school to start. Summer's much too long, and I long for that mental stimulation again.
But on a more positive note, I've been getting ideas for stories and tid-bits here and there. Whether or not they'll come to completion is another matter, but if I can get them down on paper I'll be happy. Maybe I'd be able to take a side-job as a writer somewhere down the line. I'd fancy that quite well.
And there's only 14 days till the 25th - that's exactly two weeks =) I'm excited!
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August 8, 2006 - I'm back from my trip to Yosemite! And my goodness it was beautiful. I don't think I've ever seen a place as diverse and incredible as it. Seeing something as gorgeous as that makes me realize how creation is so intricately designed and planned. It's breathtaking and quite sobering to behold. Man is so small compared to all that it is, and you can't help but feel in awe of it.
The first day consisted of a hike up to the camp, and then the second day was what we were really there for: the Half Dome hike. It was the most challenging thing I've ever done physically, but it was very rewarding to make it to the top. I was terrified - scared out of my wits at the thought of there only being two cables and a wooden board every few feet ahead of me. One slip and you'd slip an awful long way. So I did what I do when I get afraid like that - I chant. It's the one thing I can fall back on that can calm me down when I'm shaking inside. I only know one or two because I remembered hearing them when I was little, but they helped so much.Being amidst nature itself is one thing, and when you're placed right in the middle of one of its most powerful forms you feel as if you must show it your respect, and honor it for not tearing you to pieces. It is in my belief that if you tread gently, the earth will respond with its protection.
I also had the pleasure of meeting some lovely people that all helped out and made the trip that much more enjoyable.
Of course, all good things must come to an end, and Sunday afternoon came too quickly. It wasn't enough time, but I was grateful to be able to see my boy. He's a sweetheart, and he let me commandeer one of his sweaters so that I don't feel so lonely back home (350 miles is quite a ways away).
In other news, my job's going alright. Some days go by exceedingly fast and I'll have as many as 115 customers (no joke), and other days will just inch by. Lots of people have been quitting, and so we've been lacking in supervisors which puts additional pressure on managers to help us with returns and other crazy things that come up. Most of them act as if they simply can't be bothered with our problems, but the one guy that works in framing is patience itself and I'm always happy when he helps us. Even if it's just an encouraging word or two that he gives can make my day like nothing else. Today I felt awful after my first two hours, because people were being so impatient and short with me, but Jeff (the framing guy) kept my sanity. And he's also the one employee that can say my name the right way =)
Oh yes, and I received my very first paycheck today! That was quite exciting!
Girl: Jana (Jay-na). 21. 5'5". Brown eyes, brown hair. Half Indian, Half Caucasian. Night owl. Tea addict. College senior. Psychology Major. Interests: Dancing, Writing, Stargazing, Running, Swimming, Photo editing, Reading, Cooking, Astronomy, Tea, Metaphysics, Museums, Science, Medicine, Johnny Depp, Keira Knightley, Music, Movies, Ice Skating, Bowling, Tennis, Drawing, Calligraphy, Art Galleries, Stained Glass, Piano, Watercolors, London, Paris. Loves: Snow, Rain, Seasons, Photoshop, Web Design, Surprises, Great Novels, Classical/ New Age Music, Trying out new recipies, Traveling to new places, The beach, Mountains, Seattle, Finding little hole-in-the-wall shops, Jelly beans, Comfortable sweaters, Christmastime, Dancing with mops/brooms, Scrapbooking (my God, it's addicting). Thought-provoking conversation, Walks, Being creative, Hats, Most things fuzzy.
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